Lately I’ve been pouring into worship songs more than ever.¬† It seems like for the past year or so, my heart has been literally closed to moving into using my voice through the realm of worship.¬† I was not even looking at worship songs or music or anything for over a year or so.¬† I know there is a purpose in the waiting.¬† In this time God has taken me from singing to “listening.”¬† Some Sunday mornings during the worship time, God has taken me into a place of literally not singing with the worship, not performing for him, but rather just standing and being just captivated by His presence.¬† At first I wanted to pour my gift out to Him, but as the Lover of my soul often does, he just quieted my spirit with his love.¬† He longs to love me and longs for me to love him in new ways, from places deeper within my soul, that no words or song could express.¬† So now, I just long to go there and stay there.¬† So “out of the normalcy of me” I quit singing and started feeling, started listening, started being captured by His presence…Even Music was distant to me in this place.¬† I began worshiping him through the word, through prayer and fasting…really a new place for me.¬† It’s the place He’s been longing for me to go, the true worshiper in me that he is calling to rise up in these last days, the one “in spirit and in truth.”¬† I’m still in boot camp for that day and need Him more everyday.

Well, a new thing has taken place inside of me just in the past week.¬† I sang at my parents church on Sunday – hesistant even to sing this Sunday because it’s been so long & I had a head cold starting up, but as Dad often does he said “you can do it!”¬† So I did, but I felt the Lord with me and renewing me.¬† Singing “Refuge” by Jared Anderson….‘You are the source of life, I can’t be left behind, no one else will do, I will take hold of you, I need you Jesus to come to my rescue, where else can I go, there’s no other name by which I am saved, capture me with grace, I will follow you…this world has nothing for me, I will follow you.’

Now, I’m digging back into worship for the first time, back into music – with a new passion. Here’s a latest favorite:¬† When I speak your name



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