I really believe in my heart that something is happening on the inside of me – I can feel chaaaannnge a risin’ (insert the black preacher voice)! And it’s not scary – it’s weird, but not scary. Last week I was driving through our town right as a big storm was rolling in. The sky was turning a weird eeire purple grey and the wind was really kicking up it’s speed. As I drove down this hill, I started feel like everything inside of me was moving in slow motion, like something just went straight through me and I was suddenly keenly aware of EVERYTHING in my surroundings. I looked down and the hair on my arms were standing straight up. Just thinking about that moment gives me chills. Does this mean I’m the new Michael? uh. No. but I know it means something was ABOUT to happen. Lightening was about to strike.

Maybe It’s me counting down the days until I’m 30. I don’t know. But I am determined for a TOTAL LIFE CHANGE! Tonight we went walking, for our health and I feel like I can run a marathon! Its not just a new business…that’s just one tiny little spark of what I feel God doing in my heart. I want to be a “skinny-sold-out-sole-winner for Jesus!” LOL!

And I also know what else I am right now, “i’m sick.” I told Keith that statement tonight and he was like WHAT? Whatever! I said no, I’m serious, that’s how i “feel” on the inside, in the pit of my belly – you know like when you get to that point with the flu, or a stomach virus that you are SOO sick, you can’t stop vomiting and you feel so terrible you are at the end of your rope and you will do anything, ANYTHING anyone tells you to do, just to get better – even if it’s eating pickled pigs feet or something like that, you would DO it!!! You would do anything just to change your circumstances! We’ll I’m there…and I’m getting a fork in my hand and I’m saying “Grandma – bring on the pigs feet, cause I’m digging in!” :)

I hope your laughing right now, cause I’m being really craZy!! And I’m having so much fun, that I’m laughing too!

Maybe I’m just beginning to actually be who I am really meant to be! I’m no longer focusing on what I’m supposed to “do” in life, instead I am focusing more on who I am supposed to become through Christ Jesus. He tells me I am a conqueror. And today, finally, I Believe!